I wrote this a few years ago about a guy I loved, still do.
It hit me like a disciplined holy nova
Out of nowhere.
How can I possibly want you as much as I do?
We’re from two different worlds, you know.
So how can we possibly work?
What am I even thinking?
A rogue and a priest!
And yet we fit together damn near perfectly.
Inseparable in Azeroth.
We’re in sync when we battle an enemy.
We have the same hopes and want the same peace for our worlds.
And we talk about everything so open and honestly.
Except for my desire.
That’s a deep dark secret I dare not bare.
How did I even get here?
Your smile, so sweet, it cripples me–
kills me every time I see it.
Your laugh brings me to my knees
But you can’t hear my psychic scream
Begging for you to give me release
To return my affection.
But I remain silenced.
While she eviscerates your heart.
And that kills me more–
Watching her smite you undeservedly.
If I could heal your wounds and purify your pain I would.
But you’re stuck in a vampiric embrace–a touch that’s killing you,
The same way not having your love, your heart is destroying me.
I want to wake up with you every morning
And make you smile and forget your woes.
Give you serenity.
Explore the world and destroy our foes.
I want to know the flavor of your lips–
Feel your heart beat beneath my hand.
That’s how it could be.
But we’re from different worlds.
So I will love you from afar
And be here when you need me,
Praying for penance for wanting what’s forbidden,
And yet hoping that some day you will see
and confess you indeed do want me.